A regular muggle living in an all to muggle-world,
a little part of me died when I realised I'd never get to go to Hogwarts.
I want to be 11 again.
But it's too late, cause Severus Snape's already dead.
So is Michael Jackson.
Why am I always just a little too late? The name's Nisha. Welcome to my world.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Truth hurts.
Screw that, life hurts. I mean come on, sometimes when you face something, you know that it's bad and it's gonna bite your ass in the end. But you wanna know anyways, out of pure curiousity. My point is, if you know that someone hates your motherbleepin' guts, why read that person's blog? You're bound to find something hurtful or *ehem* offensive. Humans make me lol. Curiousity killed the cat, honey.
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12:16 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Look at my door!
Ain't it awesome? Yeah, be jealous.
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10:51 PM
Monday, June 20, 2011
Stuff.
Here are some facts about myself that's been there for quite a while but I just never realized it.
1) Obviously from the above statement, I'm oblivious. 2) I'm ignorant. The cousin of oblivious. 3) I'm obsessed with tea. Any kind of tea. Green tea, Earl Grey, Ginseng, Peach, Lemon. Love em. 4) I actually enjoy talking to myself rather then explaining random shit to people. 5) I love rainy nights. 6) I like being surprised. 7) I compare people's faces with farm animals and fruits. 8) I do well in something I'm interested in. 9) Which is not history cause when I do develop an interest for that particular subject, pigs can fly and Twilight might actually be fascinating to me. In other words, never gonna happen. 10) I get bored with something really easily. 11) I can remember people's faces forever. Not names, faces. I've got living proof for that. Sandy, saw him once in '09 and again in '10. Afiq and Ashrul, met them at camp in '07. Met them again in '09. They never recognised me, but man oh man did I recognize them. 12) I like being alone. Meaning I like being alone rather than being around large crowds of people. I seldom let people in. There are lucky ones. 13) I usually read or write songs when I'm alone. 14) I don't say 'I love you' straight away when I'm in a relationship with someone. 15) I hate people who say those three words so easily like it's some kind of child's play. 16) I hate public displays of affection. 17) I hate the colour beige. 18) Sweet lord, I hate the colour beige. Yuck. 19) I don't follow trends because everyone else will, and so I won't. 20) I like bring different. Not fitting in is a blessing for me. 21) I stare and study people a lot. 22) I like the number 22.
Will update this from time to time. Just need to learn more about myself. Good 'ol self.
The Rugrats really were a figment of Angelica's Imagination. Chucky died a long time ago along with this mother, that's why Chaz is a nervous wreck all the time. Tommy was a stillborn, that's why Stu is constantly in the basement making toys for the son who never had a chance to live. The DeVilles had an abortion, Angelica couldn't figure whether it would be a boy or a girl thus creating the twins
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As for "All Grown Up" Angelica was a bipolar schizophrenic who, as a teenager became addicted to various Narcotics, bringing her back to her childhood and thus her creations she obsessed over, because of time lapse between the present and the last time she interacted with her creations, she made them older, Angelica was constantally taking hits of acid, so she would never have to live without her creations who were her only company, in a judgemental world Angelica's mom actually died of a heroine overdose, Angelica was schizophrenic/bipolar because she was a crack baby, additionaly Drew in his depression married a gold digging whore, that Angelica idolized because she fooled herself into thinking it was her real mom, but always had a concept of her mom, Cynthia, and took a barbie doll, and made it after her mom's image, wearing an unwashed oranged dress, and having jacked up hair, which is why she was so attached to it, later in life she followed in her mom footsteps w/ drugs and everything, dieing of overdose at age 13 when All Grown Up! was "canceled" The only rugrat not to be fictional however, was unborn Tommy's brother Dil, however Angelica didnt know the differace between Dil and her creations, Dil didnt follow her commands, after endless crying and a refusal to disapear like the others did when angelica was angry with them, she hit him. And she hit him, screaming a screaching tune, Stu ran in and pulled his neice off of his only child, but it was too late, he had a brain hemerage, which resulted in a deformation, as he grew up his damage only became more evident, by the time he was 9 in All Grown Up! He lived as an outcast, being ridiculed for his weirdness, and retardation, the immense guilt over this is what led to her drug use and is what led Angelica to un-create the rugrats breifly, until her expericance w/ hallucinogenics. On a trip to Paris to find love, Chaz married a hooker named Kira (He was actually going to marry a differant hooker, but she just wanted him for his money), who had a daughter named Kimi that was torn from her because she was a cocaine addict (Angelica imagined her from Kira's stories), he lost his mind after the death of his wife and was in denial that she was ever prostitue, upon return to America, Chaz and Kira married and she got her greencard, it was actually a really happy/romantic story, Kira continually stuggled with addiction, but was relatively happy w/ her life, and Chaz Suzie was actually Angelica's only friend, who entertained the thought of Angelica's creations, for her, She later became a phycologist and teamed up w/ Nickelodeon to make the Rugrats! When Angelica died of drug overdose, she helped arrange her funeral, Angelica's death was sad, because of her addiction, she was expelled from society, which lead to a break with reality, and her eventual death, she spent the last days of her life in the back of the school cafeteria, imagining friends around her, and playing with the lives of her creations. She died March 5, 1994, tag your friends if you were throughly mindraped, this is the truth behind your childhood."
I don't know if this is true because I have high doubts. And God knows I'm skeptical about things like this. Or maybe I just refuse to believe it, because come on. I grew up with this cartoon and you expect me to digest something so twisted and depressing as this? I can't.. I just can't. If this is not true, however, the person who came up with this mumbo jumbo is sick in the mind. I know its stupid to get so worked up about a cartoon, but.. this is a part of my childhood. It's like you're telling me all this time, I was never moving on my own, I was controlled. It's too much to digest.
I do intend to investigate this matter though.
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12:58 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
:/
Well I just realized I don't have much emotions.
It's weird. I laugh a lot and stuff but yeah that's it. I laugh, and boom. Gone. Nothing. Nada. Capishe. Ilek.
Not saying that it's a good thing cause people get annoyed by my emotionless presence a lot. They expect me to be so jolly and gay (which means happy, mind you) about everything.
It's not that my feelings don't exist, per se. It's just that I don't show them much. I'm emotionless, oblivious and ignorant. People think I'm arrogant and stuff, but I'm not. I just don't notice.. my surroundings cause I talk to myself in my mind sometimes.
Yes, I'm a weirdo, so people don't get me. Except for Juju, cause she's a weirdo too. We're just two weirdos doing weird shit.
Yesterday an upper six kid chatted with me on Facebook. It's strange cause we've never talked before, ever. Turns out he watches my videos and uhh.. yeah he likes my voice. We chatted for a while and topics were changed and added.
Then he asked about me and Sandy. Which was again, strange, cause I thought the stupid rumour went away already. Well turns out I thought wrong.
The damned rumour is still spreading (well quite slower now, thank God) amongst the form sixxers. Jealousy, of course is still there among the girls.
But it's not true. So why should I give a shit?
There goes my ignorance.
OH YEAH, PLEASE THE PERSON WHO TOOK MY ART/SONG/PIANO FOLDER, RETURN IT TO ME. MY LIFE SORTA DEPENDS ON IT.
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10:48 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Well I..
Well I've been feeling quite down lately. And as usual, people keep asking me what's biting my ass. I'll just reply with a 'Why would you care?, and walk away.
That's really mean for me to say to someone who actually cares for me. I don't know. God knows that I'm a pessimist. So I keep on seeing the bad side of people instead of the obvious good stuff about them.
For example, a person could be super nice to me and I won't notice that cause I see his crooked teeth or something like that.
I'm such a bad person. I really really realize that now. Seeing the downside of everything is what I do. It's so tiring.
Well anyways, ever since I recommended this Blogger Droid app thing to Sandy, I've quite enjoyed blogging lately.
I guess it's cause I blog on my bed while laying on my back now. No pressure there.
She & Him has been on replay on my iPod lately. They actually help a lot during one of my mood swings. There's just something about Zooey's voice that's so soothing and enjoyable. I'd trade my voice for hers. I really would.
Well I'm gonna fall asleep to Black Hole by She & Him now. Goodnight.
P/s: Whatever happened to you, Sandy?
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12:15 AM
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
You Really Got A Hold On Me.
Well I'm inspired by this one band, She & Him. Never really was a fan of Indie Folk which is their genre. But these two are just.. amazing in a way.
So now I'm thinking about making a two man band. Just me and another person. Preferably a guy.
Their sound is just so relaxing. It actually surprised me that I liked them cause I've always been an Avenged Sevenfold or A Day To Remember type of person. But I was a huge fan of NeverShoutNever and She & Him are quite similar in some ways to NSN.
Here are some of their songs.
Huh, so I've been quite adventurous in terms of music nowadays.